England Trip

Ok, so, I have not talked to David since Saturday about the whole he-only-got-500-pound-from-the-charity-so-I'm-going-to-England thing.

No worries. It's not out of character for him to be busy and not pick up the phone for a few days.... As many of you know from my freaking about it earlier in our relationship.... Yeah...

Anyway, I've pretty much decided that, if I do go (which, why wouldn't I?) that I'm going to ingest all the the United Kingdom has to offer me.

I want take the UK by storm.

Here's a list of the places I want to visit:

Newcastle upon Tyne - Well, this is where David lives, so, yeah, I'm going there obviously.

Stonehenge - I GoogleMapped this and its about 5 1/2 hours from David's house. I mean, that's not really a 1 day trip, but I wanna go. And, ya know, its freaking Stonehenge!

Westminster Abby - I read this book called "Remember, Remember The 5th Of November, Everything You've Ever Wanted To Know About British History With All The Boring Bits Taken Out" and yes that the title, and I learned of the importance of Westminster Abby and how it was built by King Edward and all that good stuff, so I thought it would be awesome to visit.

And since I'd be in London, might as well add Big Ben, Buckingham Palace, The Globe Theater, and the Tower of London to that list.

Canterbury Cathedral - I don't know how attainable this would be cause its REALLY far away from everything.

Edinburgh, Scotland - Mostly to visit The Folly and be like John Green and describe everything as "Scotland-y".

Dublin, Ireland - Um, hello, Guiness Factory! Oh, and, ya know, it's rich history and... all that lot. And all the stuff listed on this page would be cool also http://www.visitdublin.com/seeanddo/FreeDublin/listing.aspx?id=348

I don't know if all of these places will be visited, I don't even know if any of these places will be visited, period.

Maybe this is some big pipe dream of mine that will never be fulfilled, and that does scare the shit outta me because I've been thinking about all of this and waiting and hoping and waiting and lusting and waiting and waiting and waiting to find out if or if not David got the money to come here for almost 10 months AND he didn't get enough. So now its like the big wheels of fate have been set in motion for this to happen - for me to go there.

I've promised him so many times via phone and internet that I would go meet him if he couldn't come here. And I want to keep my promise.

But it still scares the shit outta me that I might not go. And, honestly, I chalk that feeling up to not talking to him since Saturday. And its only Monday.

This is how crazy I am.

Aside from the craziness and more rationally, all of this poses a great deal of money to be had to visit these places. Train tickets, hotel stays, tour tickets, FOOD. I do have a great deal of money saved up, but do I have enough? I'll have to crunch some number at a later date.

I just want to start planning. I want to get a hold of David. Honestly, I think his phone was broke today or something cause every time I would call, during a 5 hour period, it would ring once then go straight to voice mail.

So much excitment though.... So much to think about....

I seriously go back and forth about 3 times a day if I should go or not. I wake up in the morning thinking, "I'm going to meet David and see England!" and then my self doubt kicks in and I think, "You've never met this man and you're about to run off to his hometown and stay at his house for a few weeks." And then I think, "But isn't that what life is about? Taking chances?"

During this whole thing, I've always thought of this quote that I read a long time ago. It says:

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. NOBODY said it would be EASY, they just PROMISED it would be WORTH it."

That gives me strength when I have my self doubt.

*sigh*

It'll be ok. I'll land on my feet. I always do.

Over and out ♥