I Wear My Heart On My Sleeve...

Like, I wish I could tattoo a heart on my arm with out there being too many negative ramifications in the future, but as we all know, the health care field looks down upon tattoos.

But I can't help that I wear my heart on my sleeve.

I don't see this as a bad thing. I'm always honest with people, even to the bitter end. I love fully, deeply, passionately. I can never commit to anything either. I'm always on the move.

I never take anything seriously, especially myself and except for the things I take seriously.

But sometimes it catches up with me.

I have trouble seeing the big picture because I get so wrapped up in the moment. I love being in the moment, but it does bite me in the butt.

Like, at this moment, I'm trying to plan a trip to England, by myself, in less than a month all because David said that I could come this month. September.

But, because I get wrapped up in the moment, I get SO PISSED OFF when he doesn't answer his phone when I call him. I know its not his fault a lot of times - he does have 3 kids to chase around. But since I'm trying to get my shit together in LESS THEN A MONTH, I want him on call for me.

Yes I'm being demanding. Yes I'm being a bit bitchy about it. Yes I'm being super annoying and nagging calling him all the time, but I want to talk to him NOW.

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I do love David. A lot. I've never met someone who understands me so well with having only known me for a year. He is constantly inside my head. No one has ever been that way with me. Romantically or friendship wise. He knows the way I'm feeling and what I'm thinking just from the way I say my words to him on the phone. And the same goes for me for him.

I've never loved someone so purely, with out strings or regrets. Well, I guess the only regret that I have is that I didn't visit him sooner, but that will be fixed soon.

Yes, I do get frustrated with him at times because he can't fully devote himself to me at times because of the kids. But I don't think that I would love him as much if he didn't. I love that he is a full time dad. It speaks volumes about his character.

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I'm slowly starting to feel better about going to England by myself.

I've been looking up tours in London, so that I'm not blindly running around London not knowing what the fuck I'm looking at.

My biggest worry is getting places. I'm not the best with following train schedules. I'm also worried about having enough money to get around places. I wish I was taking my credit cards, just in case I run out of money.... I think I will just in case.

Folks... I'm going to the UK.

By. My. Self.

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This is going to be epic.

Over and out ♥