Feeling Weird and Starting a New Diet

The first part of this week was just insane.

I felt like a giant ball of tension wrapped on tin foil and put in a microwave.

... I don't know, that made more sense in my head.

Point is, I was stressed to the max.

My mother and I both work at the same hospital and... lets just say, the hospital is like a sinking ship. We have had two medical doctors pull out, which means no patient admits from them, our endo doctor is gone on vacation and one of the bariatric doctors left or got his license revoked or some weird stuff.

Anyway, I have not worked since Easter, and even then I only worked 4 hours of my 8 hour shift. My mother has been hit also. She gets called off work left and right and her pay checks have suffered.

So monday I get the glorious call from my mother lementing about how my father feels about our money situation. He doesn't know how they will pay for the wedding, I'm not making any money right now (although payments are not due for a good 5 months) and he's just FREAKING OUT.

So mom tells me all this and I start to freak out. I tell Nick, he freaks out. I start to look at our wedding budget and freak out.

To top it all off, Nick had a friend staying over so I couldn't be too stompy angry rage-y about all of it.

So Tuesday wasn't much better. I felt kind of on auto poilet all day. Just kind of sailed through my clincial day, did well with my patient, nothing too exciting.

But that morning I had begun taking this new medication I have gotten from a weight loss clinic. It's call Phentermine and it's basically the same as Ritalin and is closely related to Meth. It's an ampthetamine and basicly all it does is suppress your appetite and make you have more energy.

Holy crap, did it ever.

I don't think I've ever had that much focused energy in.... ever.

But I was just still stressed to the max and just suffering from caregiver role strain. I'm not going to go into the details, but I just wanted someone to wait on me instead of me waiting on them.

Anyway so I took Wednesday off from clinicals and I got SO MUCH DONE. I felt so good. I wasn't stressed.

Yay!

Currently I'm searching for a florist for our wedding and typing up a wedding budget and typing up a tentative wedding day itinerary. So we shall see how that goes.

Over and Out

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