Friends

I thought about writing this post last night in that weird time when you're awake, but you're just beginning to dream.

I have a lot of friends. I've always had a lot of friends. Even now as I've gotten out of high school and into college, I still have a lot of friends.

I've come to find out that the older you get, the more your circle of "true friends" shrinks. I mean, I can see how this would happen. People move or get on with their lives and the ones that stay around are the true ones you can count on. People also change and grow apart and values change between friends. What was once important to the both of you now isn't important to one or the other so it makes seeing each other difficult. And sometimes people do change for the worst.

I guess I'm the type of person where I only have a few friends who I could be comfortable hanging with one on one. I like to have a group of people, at least 3, 2 other then myself, with me when I go out places. It just makes things more fun. And means I'm doing stuff by myself a lot because sometimes it's hard to get 2 people together and to agree on something to do.

I also have a problem with inviting people along to tag along when I have to go run errands. Like, I need to go over to St. Louis to pay my tuition. I REALLY don't want to go cause it will be a 2 hour round trip by the time I'm done. I could invite someone along, but I feel bad for dragging them into the situation just for me.

And then, the topic no one likes to talk about: breaking up with friends.

Have you ever had that friend who you weren't that great of friends with, but they thought you were their best friend in the world, when in reality you can't stand them? Yeah, I have. And I ended it. I don't have any regrets about it. I hate being fake friends towards people. And that's what I constantly was towards her. I was a fake friend because I secretly hated hanging out with her. Admittedly I let it go on for too long, which made the breaking up worse, but I needed it to happen. She's really rude and sarcastic towards me now, which is fine. She was always the littler person between the two of us, so I expect her to act childish towards me now, but I'm done and over with it.

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And I just got really hungry. Time for food!

Over and out ♥